Watching the weavers thread their looms.

---

Drones, Drones fill my soul

Ones and Zeros for my ears

Torrents of Tom Waits

--- 

I feel alighted with a new creativity energy. 
One that is brimming with the sparkling, "pop rocks" sensation on the tongue of "what could be".

I have fallen into the hole of "music" in the loosest definition of that term. I am consuming introductory theory, chord shapes, scales, and what fundamentals to know of the bat. 

My brain is being tickled in a way that creativity of the visual arts has not yet stimulated for me. I am hearing a drone note and I reflexively smile and feel the tingle in my spine. 

As a person who never grew up with formal music training and whose biggest musical claim is being able to play "basic bitch" chords on a guitar and mandolin, this is quite the leap. For the first time in my life, I am actively wanting to learn how to play an instrument in order to explore the mathematical vibrations of air that make me feel things on a "lizard brain" and intellectual level.

And though I mentioned my past acoustic tools of choice, I am will be venturing into another audio realm to satiate this current obsession. One where the sonic waves will be produced from oscillators, low-pass filters, arpeggios and more. 
 

May the Omnissiah bless me, for synth has entered my soul and consumed me.

---

Like all good sudden obsessions and feelings of "why has this not been a part of my life before?" I cannot remember the pin-point moment from the past two weeks that led me down this road. But thankfully for the history page in YouTube I can at least point to where my consumption suddenly changed. The index mark for when the bug bit me.

Over the past few months I have been checking out Hijaq's channel. Watching their brief, daily compositions with  the HiChord (an adorable lil' synth). I was smitten by the simplicity of their setup and the ability for them to produce such pleasant, electronic music so effortlessly. If anything, Hijaq set the ball up on the Tee, for me.

The first swing of the bat was brought on by these two videos. I was blown away by both of them for completly different reasons. "ohhhhh, this tickles my brain and had no idea this instrument was a thing" for the former. And, "this fuckin' rocks and never thought of geezers making classic techno!" for the latter.

 But it was these two... 

watching these two videos was like realizing I had hit the ball and now needed to run to First Base. I felt a small click inside me. A switch was gently flipped and the sudden amperage was lighting up a part of my brain that had been dormant for ages. For the purposes of this blog, I would label that part of the brain as the need to creatively explore without purpose (or, without an end goal to put it another way).

Lets be clear for a moment too, the experience I am describing here occurred over a couple of hours on the night of November 20th. The madness came and I asked, "how far do you want to go, right now?" 

As I was running past First Base, I received a gentle wave to keep going to Second, and then I saw him...

David 'Fuckin' Hilowitz standing at Third telling me to start sprinting.

  

--- 

This motherfucker is the one I would "blame" for sending me down this road. I was lured by his siren call. Dulcet tones, a gentle demeanour, a meek energy that makes you drop your guard. Under it all lies a musical mad man who beckons you with piezo mics, Chase Bliss pedals (gawd, do I eventually want one), and weird synths. Hilowitz blew my brains out with his innocent musical explorations and fascinations. I began to imagine myself playing around with such gear. I began to imagine myself exploring sonic landscapes. I began to imagine myself owning my own physical tools to start this journey on.

 

And so I did something I very, very rarely do. I said "yes" to an excited feeling within me. I noted and acknowledged the concerned and fearful "what if?" thoughts that crept up. But unlike in the past, they did not run the show this time. I made them feel heard and reminded them their on this ride with me, not the other way around. With that, I began to look for what tools I would need to begin this journey.

--- 

To jump to the fun part, here is what my kit will consist of:

 

An Arturia Keystep Mk 2 (midi controller keyboard)

And the KORG Volca Keys (analog synthersizer)

 

Once they are in my hands, I can only imagine that within the first few hours of mucking around and having fun with them I will have ascended to this state. 
I honestly cannot wait for it. 
It feels like eons since I have been filled with such child like joy around the possibilities of creation and creative exploration. 

 

I am constantly checking my order, hoping that I will soon have a tracking number and know exactly when I can start this deep dive into musical madness.

 

Will I post anything I make? Maybe here on the blog. I know I will share things with my close friends. Not out of fear of "putting myself out there" but because right now, this is just for me (and to also go to them and say "listen to this bonkers shit I made last night!") 

This inspiration, this drive is motivated solely by what I want and need for myself as a creative. 
Not by what I believe the world wants of me.

 

 So maybe I will eventually post some tracks on SoundCloud or where ever. Or maybe I won't. But know that whether you hear what I make or know, know that I will be making and creating in a new way. 

 

I cannot wait.